HEARTBREAKER
Reblogged from californoir February 22nd, 2012 65 notes #Prose #non-fiction #siren o'brienThe day after Valentine’s, June’s mother writes him a letter: “Darling, please do not practise auto-erotic asphyxiation. It is very dangerous. I know what it’s like to be a young person discovering the world, but I have found people who practise S&M lack something in their life.”
His mother doesn’t know he visits massage parlours once a week for happy endings, the way he calls lap dances “kindness” or the call girls and cathouses across the world. How hard he comes when a girl cries, the reluctant affection of hookers. His ability to walk away when the time is up. Why he stopped believing in love, as the ink dried on divorce papers.
June tries to think of things he might be lacking. In fact, he has everything; motorcycles, guitars, girls, money, validation. Anything he wants, he buys. He asks me, “Do you think I’m missing something?”And I say, with a tear rolling down my cheek, “I just don’t think you’ve found what you are looking for.”
